Many of you know I am terrified of heights. For La Boheme I had to climb a 10ft ladder to get on a platform to climb a 3ft ladder and peer out of a window to sing. One night the set was hit while moving other set pieces. I was on my "perch" at this point with nothing to grab onto but the set piece I was on. I was fine and overcame my terror at being up so high.
Last weekend the children's ski team had a family weekend at Moose Mountain in Fairbanks, AK. I have said earlier I don't ski well. There were no beginner slopes only intermediate. I am indebted to the coaches for helping me down the slope. Looking down that STEEP slope brought out the terror in me. Yes, I did cry. I tried to give up but Mary Beth wouldn't let me stop or slide down the hill without skiing. I had to make a decision to keep going. I couldn't go back and the only way forward was to ski down. I fell quite a few times and look like I have been beat with a bat on my legs and hip. I had to let go of my ego and expectations of what I "should" be doing.
Have you ever had a time when you thought of giving up? When you look down the terrifying steep slope and thought there was no way down? I was shaking and crying and was quite embarrassed, but I made it down. I got the movement and skied down the slope. Jacob flew past me, great job mama! Ashleigh skied down and stopped to check on me and zoomed off. Scott skied down to check on me. My family is so sweet. When I didn't think I could go on, with my thighs burning, I lifted my head and said I can do this.
When life scares you or you think you can't go on think of all the good things in your life. I know you will find they out weigh what is happening. Start little and you can overcome your fear. It may not be pretty or just the way you want, but you can do it. I have faith in you.
With love,
Angela
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